On Beyond Cancer

My life with metastatic breast cancer

Definitely losing all of my hair July 27, 2013

Filed under: Uncategorized — onbeyondcancer @ 7:39 pm

So today I lost more hair than I have on any day so far. Most of it falls it in the shower after I shampoo, but it also comes out throughout the day on my clothes, in my food, all over the floor, etc. Poor Ryan got a few strands in his blueberries the other day. It’s thin enough now that you can see through to my scalp, though oddly there are still no bald spots. Tomorrow I plan on cutting it short and then shaving it off. Ethan is ready to cut it for me and plans on giving me a mohawk.


I feel a little anxious about not having hair because it’s such an obvious physical sign that something is wrong. So far I’ve been able to make the decision whether I want to tell people that I have cancer, and if I don’t tell them they probably wouldn’t know. The last time I lost my hair I was home most of the time. I was pretty sick from the more intensive chemo regimen and I was on maternity leave taking care of Ryan. When I did go out, I often struggled with how to cover my head. It was just one more part of my outfit to put together. This time around I feel like I have a better plan with a few easy options, so I’m hoping that won’t stress me out quite so much. 


With any luck my new wig and hat will be in this week. I also ordered some bangs, just to frame my face under a scarf or hat. I really wanted to get these neat bangs on a headband from a company my friend Candi recommended, but headbands are usually uncomfortable for me. So instead I opted for these in a dark brown:





11 Responses to “Definitely losing all of my hair”

  1. I’m so sorry. I can sense how hard this is for you and I wish I could do something to make it better. I’m glad you have some better options and I’m glad your insurance covers these so you can make life easier. I admire your strength because I’m not sure I’d take this with the grace you do. Big hug.

  2. Pam Says:

    Mohawks are cool. All the college-aged counselors were sporting them at the camp my girls just finished! Seriously, that sounds frustrating. But, you remain to be truly awesome anyways!!!!
    – Pam

  3. I am sorry to hear about the side effects of your treatment, but as a photographer I can tell you that you would rock these bangs given your facial symmetry and features.

  4. Sara Says:

    I agree with Siva. And the bangs will look much better when they’re on you and not someone who looks like Doris Day. 😉

  5. Becca Says:

    I have to second the graceful comment. I’m not an accessorizing kind of person – I know, big shocker – so having to accessorize my head would send me back on my heels… if I wore those, which I don’t. 🙂

  6. Clarke, Wilford E Says:

    Dear Karissa – Hang in there – we’ll be thinking of you and we’ll see you soon. Our plan is to drive up Friday, stopping to see my Dad and the continuing on to the hotel. We’’ see you guys on Saturday.

    Tina and I were talking and wondered if you and the boys would still like to go to the hotel pool? It seems to be cold and they get to go to their other grandpa’s warm one, so if you want to try something different, that’s OK with us – we can save the hotel pool for the cooler months. Love, Dad & Tina

    Bill Clarke | Senior Director, Cloud Infrastructure Services | NTTDATA Inc.|Wilford.Clarke@nttdata.com | Mobile 410.353.9569 | Learn more at nttdata.com/americas

  7. amj413@aol.com Says:

    With a pair of earrings you will look like a Rock Star!

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